Dream 1: I get home and there’s a scruffy, dirty, wild-eyed older man standing in the vestibule of my building. I’m instantly terrified of him. He steps back from the door as I walk up to it, but I don’t put the key in because I’m afraid he’ll follow me in. He shows me two keys that look like my apartment and mailbox key, and says that his security key is getting fixed but that he lives in the building. I reluctantly let him follow me into the building. He walks to an apartment door just down the hall from mine, watching me the whole way. As I stick my key in the lock, he says that he was lying, he doesn’t really live in the building. I open my door and shut it behind me, but the keys he had were to my apartment. I can hear him fumbling with the lock as I try to remove a screen to jump out of my window.
Dream 2: I’m at a party. There’s a pool in the backyard, in which I’ve lost a ring. I bend down to see if I can see it. I don’t want anyone at the party to notice me getting in the water. I strip to underwear and jump in after it. I open my eyes underwater and can see the ring shining on the bottom of the pool and make a dive for it, but it’s so cold that it’s hard for me to keep holding my breath and I have to surface again and breathe before going back down for it. I grab the ring, slip it on, and surface. As I climb up the ladder, a bunch of partygoers and their children come out to the backyard. We’re talking toddlers. Lots and lots of toddlers in tiny autumn jackets. They all get very excited when they see me come out of the pool, and before anyone can stop them, 10 or so of them toddle into the water, laughing and squealing. Some of them can swim, some can’t. People start jumping in after them. I see a baby in a life jacket in front of me. He’s slipping out of the jacket and sinking. I jump in after him, pull him out of the water and run into the house looking for towels. It’s freezing, the baby is alive, but wet and shivering, and I am drying him off and sobbing with the guilt of causing such a chaos.
Waking up alone and afraid is one of the worst feelings in the world.